So, these last few weeks have been rather exciting time.
Lately, my small band of fellow YWAMers and I have felt God moving in a
direction that all of us sensed at the beginning of our time together at Greenhaven,
but nothing ever happened. We talked about doing stuff with the youth.
Possibilities of youth churches, groups, clubs, and even a drop in center were
bandied about, but nothing happened. They were ideas that fell quickly to the
floor as we dealt with other issues that were much more urgent.
Once again, we have felt a return to the youth idea... well,
sort of. We’re actually not sure what it is, and what the youth will do, mostly
because we believe that the youth should decide that for themselves… we are
simply facilitators. It is so much fun, though, to see them become excited
about God, to see them ready to jump in and do His will.
On a more personal note, I have noticed that this time of
working with the youth has often brought up in each one of my team members the
areas that we need to work on. I think for myself it has often resulted in me
comparing myself to my team members and not feeling “spiritual enough.” Whatever
that is supposed to be in my own mind’s eye, I don’t know. However, I have
begun to realize that we all hear God’s prompting in our lives in different
ways. Some have a deep inner sense, others can feel a noticeable difference in
the room, some say it is a still small voice…. In fact those I have talked to
about hearing God and letting Him work through us have never given me a
definite picture of how He works… the reality is God’s leading is as diverse as
His followers, and I think I forget that sometimes, and I become hard on myself
when I do. I lose sight of the fact that
I need to discover the way that He best talks to me and works through me,
whether that be through an inner discernment or feeling that something just isn’t
right (or 100% right on), or if it is more of a sensing in the room based on
what people themselves are saying. I am beginning to see that I need to trust
Him more in order to “trust my gut” as I often pray for because the more I know
Him the more I will come to a place of knowing that He is guiding me and
showing me when someone is being real or if what is being said is wrong.
Please pray for my team members and I as well as the youth
that we are spending time with. Thank you!
