Ok, so it has been a very long year, and a few things have
changed (aside from the format and name) but what can I say, a girl needs to
change things up every now and again!! :)
First, I must apologize for being remiss in updating both on
facebook and here, but I think I have really needed this last year to be mine.
Second, I have really
missed updating regularly, writing, and simply thinking out loud with all of
you. But, no promises, no guarantees because we all know where that goes… a
weird sense of self-inflicted guilt for falling short (of what? I have no idea…).
Finally, I have to give credit where credit is due. On a
bright morning, in Canadian Cottage Country, I was talking with my friend, Jess,
about this crazy journey that I am on. At the time, I was marveling at the
changes in my life in such a short time… feeling hot and cold, coming alive to
the fact that I actually had feelings, likes, dislikes, etc.
And she turned to
me and said, “You’re becoming human.”
As a former robot and workaholic, these words struck me… and
became a significant part of the journey I am on to become the person that I am,
and always have been.
A person I suppressed for so many years. A person that I am
just now getting to know.
And that is the beautiful thing. I am becoming human. I am
coming alive, and coming to believe.
Learning to relax (this one is hard),
learning to do things I enjoy, becoming aware of the things that I am
passionate about, and allowing myself to have an opinion…
So you see, change is not always a bad thing…
